Wednesday, November 26, 2014

- my violin story -

So, it all started when I was about 4 years old. I have this vague memory of my parents bringing me to a condo of a violin teacher's house several times, and then I would perform the harmonica in front of her. From what I heard, we did not just go once, it was multiple times in order for the teacher to accept me as her student due to my tender age.


All I could remember from those lessons were her screaming "Bravo! Bravo!" and me playing Suzuki volume god-knows-what. But I was never fond of the instrument, simply because it is just so difficult to produce a good-sounding tone, and for such a young girl, it must have been really hard to understand tone and pitch production.

Years passed, perhaps about 3-4 years, she planned to migrate to another country and therefore I had to find another teacher. She recommended Mr Kong Zhao Hui, who takes up the seat in SSO's (Singapore Symphony Orchestra) first violin section. There were some alternations among his family, his wife, himself, his nephew and his father. Most of the time, I was with his father. From him, I learned a lot about tone production and basic techniques. I was with him for the majority of my violin journey, about 6 years. By then, I was already 13 years old and have been accepted into School Of The Arts (SOTA) Singapore, a timely tertiary art school built in Singapore. Thus, I had to move off from this teacher to the one I was assigned in SOTA, Ms Andrea Oey.


Side tracking, what happened at home was a series of fighting against my parents for not wanting to practice and being 'forced' to perform in front of my relatives during special occasions and gatherings. It made me really dislike the instrument...


I was still not too fancy over the instrument, because of its need for constant discipline to practice in order to get results and progress. I was never patient to really sit there for an hour to practice. However, during my time in SOTA, I felt the slight recognition in my ability in the instrument, which gave me a sense of achievement and I was beginning to like it and feel the passion for it. I'm pretty sure this passion would have been more prominent if there was no academic stress. As you would already know, SOTA is not only an arts school, it's a IB-certified school, meaning we still have to study math, world history, literature, sciences, and your own art form, on top of that. You can only imagine (or not) the stress level I was in; I was on the verge of giving up.


Halfway through my SOTA education, I got a new teacher Ms Margit Saur. Being taught by her was an eye-opening experience for me. Not only was she patient, the technique she use to teach me was so easily understandable and equipped me with additional techniques I never learnt before. In the period of her tutelage, I progressed exponentially. I began to score higher and higher, it was thrilling. As I progressed, I've grown to really like the instrument and really realised my potential in becoming a good violinist and performer. With her guidance, I even won an audition to go on a tour in Switzerland and Italy as a solo and chamber performer. Looking back, it really was a big deal, being able to perform overseas as guest players. I also got accepted by Berklee College of Music in Boston with partial scholarship, though I did not accept it ultimately.


I will admit, I really am glad that my parents forced me to perform in front of my relatives, as it really prepared me as a performer now anytime anywhere. Years passed and here I am, on a scholarship studying in NAFA (Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts), where it's purely music education. Being under the tutelage of Mr Foo Say Ming, it is yet another eye-opening experience. The exposure of new techniques in tone production and intonation was explicable and so I managed to catch on rather quickly. And even more recent, I got to pass on my knowledge as a violin teacher to my student, and I think to myself "what a journey I had and will have with the time to come"...


I feel that I'm getting closer and closer to my dream, and I hope this post has inspired you to do the same with your passion.

Keep musing,
#museestate

Monday, November 24, 2014

Serena Van Der Woodsen

Ok, so, I'm pretty sure most of us have heard or even watched the popular American drama series Gossip Girl, starring Blake Lively (Serena), Leighton Meester (Blair),  Penn Badgely (Dan), Chace Crawford (Nate) and Ed Westwick (Chuck). I'm currently watching season 3 now, and boy... talk about plot twists and friendship/relationship dramas. But anyway, I am IN LOVE with how Blake Lively is being styled in this series, always looking effortlessly fabulous. So I've curated a few outfits that are inspired by her style as Serena Van Der Woodsen.

Girl Meets Boy




Winter Ensemble


Air Stewardess-ready


Formal Meeting


Queen B.




Hope this post has helped inspire you in curating your outfits.

Keep musing,
#museestate

Friday, November 21, 2014

Love hurts

Love hurts, and I mean this in the most non-cliche, not-trying-to-be-poetic, way because it's true. The person you love most could very well make you happy, but is definitely the one person in the world who may potentially hurt you the most. 


What I realised was I may have just caught a glimpse of what I felt my ex could have been potentially going through when he was with me. You need time to digest that sentence, feel free to peruse over it.


What I'm saying is that it's all making sense to me; the tantrums he was throwing over and over again, the desire to be close to me, the frustrations and fleeting thoughts he must have been going through throughout the course of our relationship. The seemingly insignificant things I felt I said, but the impact it must have had on him. They're all making sense. I just feel so bad that I did not realise this earlier on and solved them when I had the chance.


When you love somebody, you give them your all, you try to make them happy as often as possible. You want to be with them through the ups and downs. But once the other does not reciprocate or maybe have the slightest discrepancy, you start to have doubts. Once you doubt, you dig deeper. This is when it starts getting dangerous. 


You start to feel the need to get closer to him/her and to keep him/her by your side. You start obsessing over them and here is where you start to get all clingy. And let's be honest, not many people like a clingy partner, one who doesn't their partner personal space. The more you want to get closer to them, the more they feel the need to get away, take a breather, from you. It really is a vicious cycle.

What I'm trying to say is that, once you love somebody, trust that person, ignore the discrepancy as much as you can. Well, unless your partner is really acting the opposite of what you're doing, then, we've got a problem here. I know it's hard to differentiate between what is having gone too far and what is not, but this is where it gets back to my point: Love, hurts. 

Keep musing,
#museestate